This is somewhat of a bitter self-realization because I need to let go of more than half of what's on this list. Just like everyone else, I'm struggling to not end up like a crazy bitter old lady. When I grow old, I want to be the grandma that impresses everyone with her energy to Zumba/Aerobic/Whatever popular fun exercise when the time I turn old, have a wicked since of humor, cook good food, and even though may probably have a lot of baggage (physically,mentally &emotionally) future grandma self will still love life.
Baby Steps, I always tell myself to take baby steps even though I have my crazy days and go all "Fuck it. Life has no meaning."
And hope that I will achieve my dream to be a cool grandma.